1.  I have to smell absolutely everything.
2.  I am lactose intolerant.
3.  I am a texting addict.
4.  I am obsessed with minnie mouse and courtney love.
5. I love tattoos of quotes or words.






 

 


I'm the one on the right :)
 

 I don't need plastic in my body to validate me as a woman. 
-Courtney Love

One of the greatest diseases is to be nobody to anybody.
-Mother Teresa

I was born with an enormous need for affection, and a terrible need to give it.
-Audrey Hepburn

The best thing to hold onto in life is each other.
-Audrey Hepburn

I don't need plastic in my body to validate me as a woman.
-Courtney Love

People have the power to redeem the work of fools.
-Patti Smith

Darling, the legs aren't so beautiful, I just know what to do with them. 
-Marlene Dietrich

In America, sex is an obsession, in other parts of the world it's a fact.
-Marlene Dietrich

Elegance does not consist in putting on a new dress.
-Coco Chanel

I understand that our lifestyles are complete opposites, and now it's time for you to realize it. Right now in my life I am in recovery. I have avoided any drug use or alcohol use for almost ten months now, and im not asking for your praise but some fucking respect would be greatly appriciated. In every situation you've single handedly placed me in i've respected you in every way, i just wish you'd show me some back. I realize that sometimes you may say things and not realize how intensely i took them, but that cannot be held as an excuse anymore. The fact that I am 17 years old and trying to straighten my life shouldn't effect your life, and your lifestyle shouldnt effect mine. Sometimes they do effect though. I dont care if Katie drinks, she's aware of this... Ive asked one thing of her, dont drink and drive and to not call me when shes intoxicated. She has her life, and you have yours. I'm not here to preach my ways to you or anything, so dont get that impression. I just would love to have either some respect from you in my life or i dont want you in mine any longer. I'm sick of being told one thing, and then showing up somewhere and people are using. I remember specifically at the party at katie's, not only did you bring alcohol into her house (after she asked you not to) but you brought up something very personal about my father in front of complete strangers. Even then i didn't say a thing, i just walked outside and smoked a cigarette and kept my mind off of it. I just cannot understand you and your actions. You know im in sobriety, ive explained this to you, yet you still discuss and use in front of me. If you cannot  be around me sober, then i cannot continue to be around you. I'm doing this out of respect for you and respect for myself. When me, Katie and Melissa showed up at the park to meet you and Gill  and that other boy, and you didn't even have enough respect for me to wait to roll the joint until i was at the swings. You even had the audasity to roll it on the table i had purposely turned to, to shelter myself from the site. I even then had enough respect to walk away and go swing until you guys were finished. I didn't say a damn thing about anything. You even called my fucking phone one night while you were stoned and decided to make some shitty comments. In case you dont remember it was along the lines, "How's being sober?" And me replying " It's actually pretty good. " And of course a perfectly retorted comment like... "oh hahaha i bet." I was about to hang up on you but i stopped myself. Those little comments may not seem like a big deal to you, but those kinds of things hurt me. I'm not sure you understand how important sobriety is in my life. If i hadn't gotten sober, i would be dead right now. Then you had the nerve to ask Katie to bring me to a party and drink in front of me. You justified it by saying it would be in cups? Alcohol being in cups doesn't stop anything, but that's besides the point, you also said to bring me and id have fun with the DJ? Anthony look, im fine with whatever katie decides to do, and im more than happy to let her to go to a party, and if she doesnt want to go, thats not because of me. She is my girlfriend and she respects me and i respect her. She has her life and i have mine. Like ive repeated many times throughout this note, I have no hard feelings for you i just am asking consciously for some respect from you. I've showed you a lot of it, and im just asking for some courtesy. Please do not involve me in your drinking parties, do not talk to me about them, don't ask me to go. Do not do that stuff in front of me, and if that stuff is going to happen, i will simply respect your actions and not show up. I hope that you have a healthy and happy summer, and that I'll see you soon. Stay safe, and if you ever need me i am here. Our friendship is not over, but im tired of being walked all over, i've drawn my line, and i hope that you can accept that. I'll talk to you later, take it easy.

Sincerely,
Jodee.
 

If our love was a box of letters id keep it safely under my bed.
Id take every letter and tear them apart so that everyone i knew could feel what i feel.
what we have is special, there's no doubt about that.
there are times when i let my life get in the way, and it tends to cloud my vision. 
i get trapped in my own mind and i try to find anything to help me relieve myself.
i watched you walk into my life, and take my heart without a word of hesitation. 
i slowly earned yours, and im more than satisfied with it.
there are days i wish that youd be here, just to see what i put myself through without you.
then there are the other days when im glad you cant see half of the things i do.
i've found through you, that i am a person of value. 
there are things i can do, that i never thought id ever be able to do, thanks to you.
some days im not sure im any good for you, but then there are other days im happy you've discovered me.
i like to think im an asset to your life, and that i can teach you things.
Im glad to know that i can learn new ways and things through you as well.
I see us going far along side each other, but as everything goes it takes two to make such a dream come true.
the months keep rolling past us, and it surprises me everytime another month goes by.
i never thought id find someone who'd respect me, with as much respect as i have for them, but youve proved me wrong.
i never thought id find someone who'd wish to be with me forever either.
but once again, life has thrown me another gift and ill be damned if i open it early.

Laying there with you that night was the closest i've ever come to complete contentment. Our legs intwinded together with the sheets lost among the mattress. I felt my skin tingle with every touch of your fingertips. I could feel your heartbeat against my chest and I knew then, you really did love me. The taste of salt on your skin left the sweetest aftertaste in my mouth for hours. I felt like in that moment everything i was afraid of was lifted off of me. I was renewed; I was in love. The idea that, now i had nothing left to hide from you; you'd seen all of everything i was. All of my insecurities were subsided and replaced with a new confidence. 

You were saying yesturday that relationships are valued by the amount of respect exemplified, and with us there's always a lot. My respect for you is so great that it's completely incomprehensible. You always wonder why I respect you so much, but the answer is simple. You've given me substance when i was nothing. You gave me your heart knowing what i used to be, and loved me anyway. I respect you so much for looking at me and seeing more than who i once was. 

and that right there is why i respect you with all my heart... and love you with my everything.

I woke up to a beautiful girl this morning, and i couldn't help but let my bones shake with emotion.
The sun was shining in her hair and her gaze was distracted with all the beauty outside the window.
Smoke billowed from her lips and crested in the air above her, and i was home.
Everytime i have to say goodbye i feel like my heart is being ripped from my chest.
I know it's life and it's not fair but i wish it was easier than it is.
I hate knowing that this weekend was so perfect and full of life, and now i have to retreat to my cold, stale bed.
I love knowing that the tears that chap my cheeks on the lonely nights are the proof i have that this is love.
I know that every night i will look up at that moon and know that, no matter where we are, we'll be looking at the same moon.
One day that moon will be above us, us together wrapped in a blanket breathing as one.
My heart hurts knowing that you're facing your days alone these weeks im not there, but i live on knowing that i'll be there soon.
I've never felt so alive in another's arms, and I've never felt so at home with another person.
I stand in front of the mirror and tell myself it's going to be okay, i just have to wait it out a few more weeks, but my bones keep shaking.
My fingers are trembling with everything i do, and every simple thing i do brings back our memories vigorously.
The tissues i keep wrapped tightly in my hands are cold and soaked with the tears streaming my face.
I don't know what i'd do without you in my life, i don't know what i'd do if you gave up on me.
You've done so much for me, and you care about me more than i care about myself.
You keep my heart and mind in check, and you rain your purity on my frame with every touch.
You keep my eyes the promise that if they keep crying, i'm not dead yet.

I came home today, and i set my things down and literally collapsed on the floor.
I dont know what you do to me but i feel like im dying everytime you disappear out of sight.
I layed there and prayed for a good amount of time, that distance wouldn't give you the courage to let go.
I crawled into my bed and laid there curled up against myself wishing the days weren't so long.
I wish i was older and had my shit together, so that we could be together everyday; every night.
I know that if i just keep wishing and keep you closer than anyone, one day my wishes won't be wishes but my day to day.

You're my proof that I'm okay, and that I'm alive.
So i'll be seeing you in my dreams and in that moon, until the next time i feel you in my arms.